Tag: depression

Dealing with Cancer

Having cancer is bad enough. The fatigue, weakness, sickness, and just plain feeling bad all suck. I will readily admit, however, that the side effects I have experienced are not even close to what others are forced to endure.

But honestly, at least to me, the worst part of having cancer is not what happens to me, but rather watching my family and friends have to deal with it. It crushes me to see the stress and hardship it puts on them.

Unfortunately, there’s not a lot that I can do about it. Forgive me for rambling, it’s just what has been on my mind lately.

Enjoy every minute, because you can’t buy one second back for all the money in the world.

I Have Thrown Away My Life

Here is a quote I have seen attributed to Robert Dale Owen on several occasions. I am neither endorsing nor condemning the man and his views, I just like the quote.

“I committed one fatal error in my youth, and dearly have I bewailed it; I started in life without an object, even without an ambition. Had I created for myself a definite purpose-literary, artistic, scientific, social, there would have been something to labour for, and to overcome. But the power is gone. I have thrown away a life. I am an unhappy man.”

Emptiness

Nothing in my past,
My future mirroring those days,
Always lonely, though never alone,
Both master and the slave.

Ashes alone, those days now gone-
No memories remain.
I hear the songs of others-
Yet I have none to sing.

No light on the horizon-
No stars in the nighttime sky.
No echoes of my past to hear-
No will to live or die.

Relying on the words of others,
As they tell their former glories-
Unknown tales of unknown times,
Unknown player in an unlived story.

A world unsearched, a life undone-
Years spent and nothing gained.
Uncertain of the how and why-
But emptiness remains.
(C) 2018 BJ